Letter For Myself

 Dearest Anin,

I know exactly how you're feeling, and it's awful. A continual feeling of exhaustion, with aches and pains all over your body, an inability to think effectively or remember the most basic things, and an overpowering sense of loneliness.

I know how lonely, angry, lost, powerless, and puzzled you are. I know you want to be successful again, but you're not sure how. I know you can't see a way out and are afraid that this is it for you.

I want you to have faith in me. I'd like you to follow my lead. Because, while you may believe there is no hope for you right now, I am confident that you will overcome this.

It won't be a return to who you were, but rather a journey to a version of yourself who thrives, excels, smiles, and laughs in every aspect of your life. You'll be happy and satisfied. Please take my word for it.

You are a strong, determined, and self-sufficient lady who has accomplished a great deal. You give so a lot to others, is always willing to assist in any way possible, and never want to let anyone down. You are admired and cherished by more people than you realize.

And now it's up to you to take care of yourself, just as you do for everyone else, and to accept the love and support from all those who are eager to give it to you.

I understand how difficult this will be for you. Sharing your vulnerabilities and asking for help is merely exhibiting the strength and courage for which you are already renowned.

You'll have to do a lot of the exploring on your own, but you don't have to do it all by yourself. You have a wide range of people who will be at your side the entire time, supporting you and reacting to your needs with compassion. And please know that I will be waiting for you, smiling and ready to provide you with the joy and laughter you so much desire.

Allow yourself to feel whatever emotions arise. It's okay to be happy, sad, angry, disappointed, or teary – all emotions are valid and vital elements of the journey... You don't have to keep them locked away for anyone.

Every day, actively enjoy the joy. Invite a buddy over, read novels that transport you to another world, gaze up at the sky, and laugh with your buddies.

You will be the first to arrive. Put all of that love and concern for others into yourself, and let others assist you when they can. You have earned it.

That's all you need to consider right now. The rest will take care of itself, and you'll find your own path. I promise you, your intuition will lead you in the right direction.

You’re already on your way to something better. You may not be able to see it right now, but you will, very soon.

It’s time to rest.

Thank you for allowing me to be the person I’ve become.

 

With all my love and gratitude,

Anindya Tanisa xx